Subbu (SCMHRD director) was very kind on us to give us three days break for diwali, though not too kind, cause he had sandwiched this break between (7 before the diwali and 6 after) our first semester exams. Had gone to Mumbai for two days, had a good time. It was good to return home and meet mom and dad, didi, friends and special friend.
It was also a good opportunity for me to meet all the infoscions who were leaving for mysore training on the 18th, the same day that I was leaving for Pune. Hardik, jignesh and saarim se mila. Acccha laga. Ab pata nahi who kab ayenge,mein kab aunga aur hum kab milenge. Looking at them I remembered my day when I had left for Pune on the 1st june around 4 and a half months ago.
I and jigi had a good last talk on the rajendra nagar flyover. We were discussing how life is, how we leave all that we were, and that we had for the last 20 odd years behind. All in the search of success. Our family, our friends, (our bike, yeah I miss her a lot), and virtually our whole zindagi.
He was asking me a question, ‘why do we have to leave all that matters to us behind like this? ’. I was giving him all the answers that I had given to myself when I had come to Pune ( like zindagi mein kuch karna hain toh sacrifices karna hi padta hain, ya kuch pane ke liye kuch khona padta hain). But I knew these are just answers. That’s all that they are and that’s all that they would ever be.
Final day in Mumbai on 18th I had gone to Ram mandir for my prayers, before I leave for Pune. I prayed there and just sat on the seats there in the temple. Right in front of the almighty, Lord Ram. In that peace and silence that prevailed in that holy place, my mind was still turbulent and searching for the question that jigi had asked me. ‘Why do we have to leave everything that matters to us behind? ‘. Still searching for an answer. And then all of a sudden I realised the answer was right in front of me…
Lord Ram, the almighty. The great lord that He is, He decides lives, Apne tarazu mein tolke sabko khushi baatne wale bhagwan. Sabki hatho ki lakiren banakar unko zindagi dene wale bhagwan, who bhi toh gaye the apna sab kuch chod van-vaas.
He loved his dad, king Dashrath, He loved His praja a lot. But still he had to go for a van-vaas for 14 years, away from the luxuries of a kings life. He left all that he loved behind (the only good point is he could take his soul mate sita (I can’t) and brother Laxman along).
The turbulence just settled down. The silence and the peace of the holy temple just reached my rather turbulent mind and now I had peace. I thought the Great Lord himself had to leave everything behind than ‘who am I’, just a mere mortal.
That way of looking at the ‘question’ gave me an answer to his rather difficult question. So finally now I am at peace and hope this helps jigi answer his question and gives him the same peace that I have got when he reads this piece.
Zindagi rocks !!!!
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